Choosing Joy, When I Don't Want to

Today I don't feel joyful. Not even a bit. I hate that feeling of having your hopes dashed, which happens way too often in my life. While I feel thankful and joyful about nothing today, I'm alive. My dear cousin Katie is in her last days after a battle with colon cancer. She's younger than me. I bet being alive another day would feel pretty damn good to her.